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Feb. 27th, 2006 | 01:06 pm

It's been interesting. Everyone is coupling up, once again. In an attempt to distract myself, I've returned to my former love of reading. The downside is that this... makes me moody. Incredibly moody. Granted, no one else has noticed, but I have. I'm experiencing emotions I don't have words for and feelings that I'm sure fall outside my spectrum of normality. It wouldn't be horrible, I'm sure, if any of these mood swings produced something worth seeing. It's almost as though I'm riding a roller coaster with an incredibly long descent.

When I first noticed that I was not only moodier but more depressed, I went to get plasma taken, mainly to check my iron level so I would know the unending sadness wasn't being caused by anemia. My levels are well within the normal range. I honestly haven't the slightest ideal what it is. I just feel so much more -blah-than usual. And, as one would expect, there isn't a soul in the world to talk to. That's an exaggeration, there are people but their best advice, which they give frequently is to "Stop." or "Get over it."

If I could, I would.

I found a nice quote the other day; it describes me so very very well. "I know you believe you understand what you think I said, but I'm not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant." I checked online for the author but the vast majority of the sites that had the quote listed it as anon or unknown. There were three that listed Nixon and another that listed an Irish poet whose name escapes me at the moment. I'm going with anon, just to be safe.

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